Please bear with me with this post. It is the most personal one I have done, but it feels like the right thing to do. I have read so many inspirational posts about people dealing with issues; anything from stress to mental illness. This week has been a momentous one for me and I wanted to share my experiences. Consider it my way of getting to know the girl behind the blog.
This year has been a bad one for me. Without going into specifics, events occurred that more or less broke me. I have since had a change of direction and am now looking forward to going back to university to start a Publishing Masters, which will hopefully help me land my dream career.
For the first time in months, I have actually felt the urge to look after myself this week. I have been awful with my skin-care routine and it has left my skin dry and a mess this summer. I made the decision with a face-mask last Saturday and have had a fantastic week actually using everything I should be. All the right cleansers, toners and moisturisers have been used daily and I’ve even made the point of moisturising after the shower/before bed. It sounds petty, but I can’t recall the last time I managed to do this for more than a day and the difference! I don’t feel I’m fighting a losing battle at the moment!
My next big thing was overcoming an OCD element. While I have never been told I officially have it, and compared to some I probably don’t, there are certain things that have a habit of taking over my life. Lately, that has been watching series. I don’t mean I’m always watching. I mean, I have loads on the go, episodes have to be watched in certain orders and new series started at set points. I wasn’t really getting through anything. But I made the decision to try and overcome that. I have since watched five episodes of the same series in a row without starting anything new. For me, this overcomes quite a block in my mind.
These are my two main achievements this week. You may read this and laugh, but for me, it has been a huge deal and made me feel I have confronted a few demons. My minor changes have been focusing on eating healthily (it’s not working very well, but at least I am trying!) and stopping requesting so many books. I want reading/reviewing to remain fun, not to feel as if I was swamped. To be honest, that was how it was getting. But I have now gone three days with no new books and not signing up to any book tours, so hopefully I am getting back in control.
So there you have it, an insight into my messed up world. I hope this changes continue so I am able to relax a little more. Does anyone have any advice/the same problems?