Some of you might have picked up from my ramblings over the last few months that I have trouble with anxiety and confidence, even to the extent of touching upon OCD at times.
A few years ago, I was introduced to the benefit of to-do lists. I thought it was great; uni work could be balanced with pleasure and I’d achieve loads.
It started getting out of hand. I was adding more on than I had a chance of crossing off. Simple things such as reading my book became a chore, a job I had to do just to tick it off the list.
It was more than that, though. Reading had to be done in time slots. Uni work could only be ticked off if I had done an hour. Writing was done by word counts and playing around on photoshop only counted if I made a set number of graphics.
I spent most of my time stressed. I couldn’t prioritise as I just needed to get as many things ticked off. It was out of control, and I knew it. Each day resulted in me focusing on what I hadn’t done rather than what I had.
June may have been a gorgeous month in regards to the weather, but I am excited about what is coming up on the blog in July!
As well as a number of reviews (see below!), I have a few posts that I’m looking forward to writing. Over the last month, I’ve managed to overcome a few personal challenges, including dealing with stress and being more relaxed in how I tackle each day.
I’m planning to write a post about it –what else does a blogger do when they have achieved something? I think it is going to be an interesting self-reflection, thinking of all the things that I used to do and how I am managing to get around it without completely freaking out.Read More »
Now July has hit, I’m deciding no more excuses. I’ve got to get the set amount of work done that I target myself each day and I’ve got to make it to the gym when I say I am going to go.
I have absolutely no idea how much pep-talking myself is going to help, but it has to be better than not having the motivation to do anything. I’ve always been motivated, but have just been drowning under trying to do too much and the end result being that I’m not achieving anything.
I’m currently having an odd-jobs and bits and pieces afternoon. Nothing that takes long, but all jobs that I want to get done. If I make Sunday a catch-up day on those sorts of jobs, it will free up time during the week.
That being said, I’m babysitting later so am desperately trying to get as many done as possible before heading out!
This week hasn’t just been about break-throughs (although I do have my first gym class on Monday – eep! Wish me luck!). Between reviewing books, I have been revisiting Harry Potter this year. I finished the final book last night.
All I can say is that I had forgotten just how good these books are. And, true to form, I cried in the last one. Only once, mind you, but it still hit me hard. It wasn’t just the nostalgia of revisiting these books. I had forgotten, or never quite realised, how genuinely good they are. This was my first time of reading them as an adult and I think I surprised myself with how much I enjoyed them!
I watched the first two films earlier on in the year but wanted to stay ahead with the books. Now, however, I can have a bit of a marathon and watch the rest of them. I’m not sure how many times I’ve seen the later films, so it could make for some entertaining watching.
But while I’m having fun rewatching Harry Potter, you can have fun catching up on any blog posts you might have missed! Sounds good to me!
Despite believing I was short of a review this week, I managed to pull one out of the bag! It was mainly because I went to uni, which gave me a nice long train journey to get some reading done. So rather than only two posts, here are this week’s three blog posts:
I feel bad that I missed writing this post last week, especially as I had the week off work. But I got hit with a really bad headache on the Saturday night. Thankfully, I wasn’t in work Sunday morning, and I was able to spend it in bed before heading out for a family birthday BBQ. While it was a lovely day, I was so exhausted when I got home that I just crashed.
This week has been an interesting one. I’ve definitely been on a rollercoaster. By Wednesday, I had barely slept because of nightmares and was basically terrified for my future. While I am not certain that I have actually made any decisions, per se, I’m definitely (thankfully!) feeling much calmer now and trying to keep myself calm.
My main problem when I have one of these spells is that my self-care goes straight out of the window. I don’t use any of my moisturisers and I’m really bad at making it to the gym. Right now, however, I am writing this with a face-mask on and have my gym bag packed ready for the morning!
The week off work has been nice though; it meant that I gained two of my evenings back. I only chilled and watched films, but as that included watching Beauty and the Beast (the 1991 version) with my mum – something I’m not sure we’ve ever done – it was nice to have that time.
I’ve just finished Friend Request by Laura Marshall for one of my reviews next month. I’ll save my main thoughts for the review, but let me just say, it’s the first thriller in a long time where I haven’t been able to guess what was coming. Really enjoyable read!
My next book is the final Harry Potter one. Once that is done, however, I want to re-read both the Infernal Devices and the Mortal Instruments by Cassandra Clare, so there is no shortage of reading material here!
I may have missed writing a post last week, but did you miss reading any? Here’s what was posted so you can have a look:
I’ve had trouble with Lovefilm over the last few weeks which has basically meant that I’m not getting the films that I am requesting. I don’t want to get back into the habit of reviewing everything, because it is enjoyable just to watch a film for the film’s sake.
As a result of that, however, I am one post short this week! I’ll make up for it by slipping some extras in when I can.
This is what I have got planned for this week though:
Monday: Book Review: They are Trying to Break your Heart by David Savill
Wednesday: The Book Sacrifice Tag
Ooh it looks sad and lonely only being a couple of posts. C’mon, lovefilm, send me what I want!
How about you? What do you have planned this week?
I’m coming to realise that my book-buying hobby is becoming an addiction somewhat. I have a great charity shop near me where books are only 25p – and it is just opposite work and on the way to the library. It’s dangerous.
It’s not only physical books – I keep finding great deals with ebooks as well. Every time I connect my kindle to the internet at the moment, I’ve always got three or four books to download.
As I’ve obtained some great sounding books over the last few months, I thought I would do a mini book-haul and take a look at some of the ones I now own.Read More »
I think we’ve had spring, summer, autumn and winter combined this week! From glorious sunshine to torrential rain to strong winds – don’t you love the British summertime?
There might be a few reviews missing over the following few weeks. I’ve had difficulty with Lovefilm sending me the films that I have prioritised to review! I planned to use The Impossible as a filler, but after sobbing my way through it, I knew I would never be able to form a coherent response.
Then I thought about using Ender’s Game, after watching it last night. Maybe it was because I had had a long shift, was tired and had a headache. Or maybe it was the film itself. But I wasn’t engaged for the majority of it – I knew what was going on, but had no connection to the characters and basically didn’t care. Again, not a very interesting review.
Hopefully they’ll send the right ones this week! But I’m behind on reviews, and should be planning next month’s over the next few days, so watch this space!
That has summed up what I have been watching this week. How about reading?
I’m about halfway through Lord of Shadows by Cassandra Clare right now. The Dark Artifice series doesn’t grip me in the way that the other series have and there is a little too much pining going on for my liking at the moment. Maybe that is the drawback of reading this one at an older age? I’m still enjoying it though!
I’ve just finished Blood Bank by Zoe Marckham. It was only a short book, hence saying yes to the tour. I’m still trying to wrap my head around it but it was dark and gory in a few places. It’s the second vampire book I have read in the last couple of weeks, and definitely was your nitty-gritty-bloodsucking vampires. Bonus points for the random Twilight references in it though!
I’m interested myself to see how the review comes out once I’ve had time to digest the book. But why is it every time there are vampires, werewolves turn up? Or vice-versa? Can there not be one book that has one without the other? Or can anyone recommend werewolf books?
Despite reviews potentially messing up over the next few weeks, let’s take a look at what I managed to look at this week: