Up and Coming: May

Here we are, a new month, a new blog post. April has flown by in a blink of an eye. I’m sure I had plans for it, changes that I wanted to make and things I wanted to do. Instead, I turned 24 and spent another month watching life pass me by. It’s really not a good feeling, I must admit.

I would say changes are being planned, but I’m so lost at what I want to do, I’m not sure that is true. Parents nag when I won’t open up, then snap when I do. I just don’t know what I want! If anyone locates my direction in life, then please point me towards it, I need all the help I can get.

Anyway, I’m going to focus on the things that make me happy as otherwise this whole post will be a rant and a moan and I’ve been writing enough of them lately. What’s planned for this month?

Revisiting Resolutions (May)

This month has changed things for me. There is no more university. The official deadline was on the 12^th May. Typical me; I had handed everything in a few days early. I had to actually – I had an appointment at home on the 11^th. But it’s over. Finished. That chapter of my life is now closed and I guess it means I have fulfilled one of my New Year’s resolutions as one was to graduate. By the end of this week, I will know what my grade is as well. It’s terrifying! In all honesty, I can’t wait until this week is over because I feel like I’m walking on egg-shells a little at the moment.

Last month, I believed my writing was increasing. That no longer seems to be the case. It’s hard to judge. What was a lot then while dealing with university is not much now I have free time. I guess it is ticking along. I’m focusing more on my editing in terms of fanfictions to improve my writing style and continue to develop it in a space where I can receive feedback. I have also had a few novel sessions. But inspiration is lacking at the moment and unless things pick up, I certainly can’t claim to be a writer the way I wanted to. The only thing that has really gone according to plan is I have had a few blogging sessions since being home so things are running smoothly on here.

What else do I have on my list of resolutions? Health? I think it is getting there. The headaches that have been plaguing me all year are finally being investigated. Now that I am home, I’m making the point of eating healthily. I’m not sleeping brilliantly but again, I think that is waiting for results and the apprehension for that. Things are getting there. I need to get myself into a routine to keep it that way though.

There isn’t much to report for this month. It was such a huge deal to finish university. Then I had a week in France as a final uni trip. Even though I have been done for a few weeks, I’m still trying to recover from uni and sort out what I am doing with my life. I am completely redecorating my room at home with new furniture etc, so that is going to be good for a new start.

I guess this has been a transition month. The big changes I anticipated haven’t hit me yet. Intense job hunting starts this week as once I know what my grade is actually going to be, it makes applying a lot easier. I just have everything crossed something comes up soon in order to keep myself positive. I know how I get when things are in limbo and I’m scared all the progress I have made this year so far will be lost.

There, that is my confession for this month. How is everyone else?